Thursday, 31 October 2002 Halloween :)
What a fun time.... I love Halloween... such fun.... I didn’t quite know how to dress up this year so I decided to decompose and went as ‘Decay-NY’ and thankx to Ian’s camera I can show you. I even scared the cats... they stared wide eyed at me from the living room.... That’s Kimo under my desk and Basil under the lamp... heh.
Wednesday, 30 October 2002 :)
Today I was so tired that I slept for most of the day.... I missed an appointment with Michele.... and also with my doctor.... guess I just needed to rest.
Tuesday, 29 October 2002 :)
Each day brings more healing.... today I ate potato chips.
The lethargy is unreal still... I get so tired that I have bursts of energy and then two hours of sleep.... I know that will improve with time too.
Mally called out of the blue.... she’s such a love.
Kristopher came to spend the night.... very cool.
Monday, 28 October 2002 :)
Ian’s Mom came over for lunch.... Later on Ian headed into New York for a meeting at Le Cirque..... I went to JC Penney’s... what’s wrong with this picture?
My mouth is better than yesterday and I had Sushi for supper... ymmm.... that’s a real improvement.
Sunday, 27 October 2002 :)
Still more improvement in the mouth department... my tongue is even less sore.
I paid a call on Mom and Aunt Pam.... that was fun. They were having a yard sale and it was neat to hang out a while.
Saturday, 26 October 2002 :)
I’m psyched... ‘cause for the first time in weeks my tongue is allowing me to eat real, solid food.... yeah.... Funny how grand simple things are when they’re no longer simple.
Had a fight with Trever... made up later. Thank God for Ian.... he stepped in like the perfect buffer and defused the whole thing... then he stayed by me to make sure I was okay... I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again.... Everybody should be lucky to have an ‘Ian’ in their world.
Friday, 25 October 2002 :)
I rested as much as I possibly could... gotta get past this and then start working out and get in shape for the operation.
Aunt Rusty headed down to see Linda and Gary in Key West... cool.
Thursday, 24 October 2002 :/
Today was much better and I went to get my blood-work.... The trees are looking so beautiful with all the colours... it’s cold and just perfect weather-wise. The blood results showed my Platelets are way low (59 instead of 140-400.... less than 20 and you get into the hemophilia stages) needless to say - low stress with lots of rest are what’s called for and it has my attention... big time.
Mariann came over and hung out with Ian and me. We talked about all sorts of stuff... it was a fun visit.
By the way... ya gotta meet Ginger... she’s Olivia puppy and she’s too cute!
Wednesday, 23 October 2002 :(
Well, expiration dates are for a reason.
Before going to bed last night, just after taking my sleeping aid, in an effort to ‘get a jump’ on things.... I drank two full cans of Ensure... strawberry flavored.... yummmm. Doesn’t sound like much, but what a mistake that was. I was sick with a CAPITOL S... all night with cramps and pain and diarrhea - turns out they had expired - way back.... who knew. PS - I never went to sleep last night. I decided to let Ian sleep ‘cause he had a meeting in New York in the morning. At Seven when Ian woke up he went to the store for Pepto-Bismal... and in an hour I was out of pain and asleep... I usually stick with chocolate - which explains why that flavor just sat on the shelf.... and ya know, I distinctly remember thinking, ‘Hmm, strawberry tastes great, wonder why I never tried it before.’.... heh.
Ian’s Mom came over and stayed with me until Ian could get back from his meeting in...
Tuesday, 22 October 2002 :)
Today I did some walking... I gotta get back in shape for the operation.... I’ll be getting it scheduled soon I bet. My tongue wasn’t as ‘prickly’... it’s getting better and better, but my mouth is full of sores... blech.... gotta do more gargling... and wait.
I must admit that lately I’ve been attaching more television than I have in a very long time... I notice the commercials too. Going through cancer there’s one that really stands out.... It had to be written by guys: It introduces a yogurt company that’ll donate money to help fight the disease with every lid ya send in..... but the tag-line.... “Together we can lick breast cancer”.... hmmm.... let’em try that one with testicular carcinoma.
Monday, 21 October 2002 :)
My Mom is in Atlantic City.... she’s been there since Saturday... I think she’s coming back Tuesday.
I didn’t see much difference today..... definitely a smudge on my calendar, but still I haven’t vomited once - life is good!
The twins were acting up.... I don’t know what girls fight like but boys can be way tough. I spoke to them for a while... gave them speech #305, ‘The Importance of Family’... Trever wants a DNA test before he’ll concede that point.... heh.... I know the feeling.
Sunday, 20 October 2002 :)
Today was better than yesterday and I didn’t vomit once.... *Happy Dance*.
Kris and Mel stayed over last night but the he was up and out early and before I was aware of it the time had come for them to head home. That’s how theses days are to me... a kind of soupy blur which gets clearer as time goes on.
Saturday, 19 October 2002 :)
Prayer Update: D.J. Benson came out of the coma she was in.... thank you for the great prayers.... isn’t it great!
For me today was rough.... it’s all the side effects that I’ll be dealing with from the chemo.... No sweat... it’ll pass..... it’s so important to remember that this will all be ancient history soon.... Mariann’s having a party to celebrate her birthday, but Ian and I can’t attend.... there’s next year.
Please say prayers for Karen, she’s 49 and needs them, seems she’s one of the newer soldiers in this war on cancer.
Kristopher and Melanie are expected to come over later and stay the night.... it’ll be good to see them.
Friday, 18 October 2002 :)
Big Day.... The pump was removed.... Ian went into New York and today marks our eight year and six month anniversary..... wow.
Unfortunately I think I threw up everything I ever ate in this life and a couple past lives too..... just how it went... oh well.... tomorrow will be better.
was asked to participate in a TV commercial for cancer but declined... not up to that just yet.
Thursday, 17 October 2002 :/
Today would have been my Dad’s Birthday..... hmmmm.....
Please say a prayer for D. J. Benson.... I just got word that she needs them badly.
Wednesday, 16 October 2002 :\
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mariann!!
Kris came and stayed overnight tonight... that was really cool to have all my three sons under one roof.... just like once upon an time.
Otherwise it was a quite and WoOzy day.
Tuesday, 15 October 2002 :/
Today the positional vomiting began.... I’d get WoOzy just by standing or laying down... once I was in position and vomited I’d be fine.... this doesn’t happen EVERY time ... just a lot.... and not a big deal.
Kris called and he is planning to come and stay overnight tomorrow, that’ll be really nice.
Monday, 14 October 2002 :/
Started the Chemo treatments today..... Yay.... now for the next couple of weeks I’m gonna be a dish rag, of sorts. Ian was right there by my side the whole time. The nurse there hooked up the pump too so that the 5-FU started right away.
While I was getting the treatment I got a call on the cell phone from a Realtor about a house with an amazing river view.... hmmmm. Later Ian and I went to see Aunt Toni-Ann and Aunt Pam, Kissy and Nuah and C.J. too... we all went to see it. Very impressive, a colonial manor style Colonnades with wrap around porches.... very ‘Tara’.... a commanding view.... a nice price... in a horrible section of Newburgh... pity.
Sunday, 13 October 2002 :\
It’s a rainy day... Ian headed out to Pat’s house and I headed to Aunt Pam’s. She was having an indoor yard sale.... so to speak. I mentioned that we were looking to get a King size bed and the next thing I knew Aunt Pam gave me one.... yahoooo..... how cool is that!
Ian and I went to Penney’s and got all the bedding to go with it... .very neat.
Please say a prayer for M.T..... she tried to take her life today and she has everything to live for.
Saturday, 12 October 2002 :)
Two years ago today life was a hell of a lot different with the twins.... today Shawn is doing volunteer work and Trever is at Football practice... funny thing this life.
This evening we went to Kingston to the museum for a wine and pastry party in honor of Barnet (Barney) Schecter’s, ‘The Battle For New York’’... he’s being reviewed in tomorrow’s New York Times and he’s understandably excited. After the party Tom Hoffay took a group of us out to a quaint restaurant set in a seventeenth century stone house.... we sat by a roaring fire and had the best time laughing and sharing... and the food was amazing! Jeff and Billiam, who we knew were among the guests so that was cool.
Friday, 11 October 2002 :)
Ian and his Mom headed off to Newark Airport to pick up Uncle Paddy who was returning from Ireland, sadly his brother Richie died.
I went to get my blood work taken and the results are much better and I will be able to have Chemo Monday..... YAY!!
Ian and I celebrated by going out for dinner to an Italian restaurant in Poughkeepsie.... he look so sexy with his head shaved.... grrrrrrowwwlll.
The leaves are turning colour and it’s starting to look like Autumn is really here... (and that means winter will be right behind).... I am lovin’ this weather and I can’t wait for winter.
Thursday, 10 October 2002 :)
It started off as any other day, but it wasn’t to end that way.
I went to Cornwall-on-Hudson to meet with Michele Okin. I got to see Aunt Pam and Kissy for a quick “hi” and Michele and I spent a couple of hours together. It was good to see her and catch up... we still have much legal work to do for the foundation.
When I got home I was shocked.... Ian had shaved his head.... just for me so I wouldn’t feel so different.... See why he’s my Buddy? He looks so different... still handsome as ever... I was really touched.
Later on in the evening we went to a book signing for Barnet Schecter’s, ‘The Battle For New York’’.... he was a really nice guy who reminded me of Ross (David Schwimmer) from Friends... heh.... We’re invited to a party on Saturday in his honor... I hope to feel okay to go.
Wednesday, 9 October 2002 :)
I got to see Aunt Toni-Ann today... she stopped by with Kissy and Nauh today.... It was really great to hang out with them.
The boys went to stay overnight with Mariann and Robbie today so there was peace in the valley. The coolest thing has happened - Buddy and I have really connected so that I have come to enjoy his company more and more.... sounds crazy but until very recently he was a more of a pet than a pal.
Tuesday, 8 October 2002 :)
A slow start, I took it easy. Went to see Aunt Pam and make sure that she was really okay after the elective surgery she had yesterday... she was well and in fine spirits. Mom was there with and so was Kissy. I stayed a short while and then came home.
Please say prayers for Tom Bethea... and if you know of other prayerlists, please take a moment to add his name to it.
Monday, 7 October 2002 :)
What a day! Ian went to New York and has another new client... he’s happy. I went to get my blood work done and my Platelets are even lower - so that nixed the chemo for this week too. I was given clear directions - REST!
Without making it clear what his intentions were Shawn went with some friends of his to the marina. One of the boys Dad had left the keys in his cabin cruiser and the three guys decided to go out on a nighttime adventure. Well, the boat stalled in the middle of the Hudson and the boys couldn’t get her going. After dropping anchor and radioing for a tow they hung out in the cabin. Meanwhile we were growing more frantic by the moment until we heard that they were safely being towed back to the dock....... Boys!
Please say a special prayer for Larry Hoskins and Tracy Phillips..... they both are ready for their miracles and if anyone can help jump start that engine I know my readers can..... Prayer is a powerful energy.
By the way, thank you for all the emails you send, I’m sorry if it takes me too long to respond... It’s ‘cause I get so many.
Sunday, 6 October 2002 :)
Mom stopped over today... she looked marvelous. She brought with her two pounds of prawn, (not to say there’s any connection between looking marvelous and bearing two pounds of fine sea food..... at least not one that’s been clinically proven.)... hrmn... She stayed a while and then took off. I’m not planning on telling the boys.... (or would that be too ‘shellfish’ of me)... heh.... too bad.
Ian and I were watching a TV movie, “Hell On Heals” and we saw our friend Mally in an extras spot... very cool.
Saturday, 5 October 2002 :)
A totally sleepy day..... woke at twelve.... walked a mile.... napped.... washed and waxed the car, again... and napped.
Had words with Trever for being mouthy..... he’s sleeping at a friends house tonight..... Ian and I went to the mall to get some window shopping in.... it sure is fun to hang out with him.
Friday, 4 October 2002 :)
I went to get my blood work done and found that my white cells have rebounded with gusto.... yeah..... but, my platelets are too low for me to get chemo.... drats. Platelets are what make your blood clot. We’re gonna wait and see what happens and redo the blood work Monday.... if we don’t like what the numbers are we’re gonna hold off the chemo for a day or a week and allow the body to do it’s thing.
Ian’s Mom came over for a late breakfast and we had great fun looking over the latest Departures Magazine that featured England and Scotland.... I plan to go there when I get done with this silly stuff.
Thursday, 3 October 2002 :)
Here’s some great news - my son Kristopher is taking a job that will bring him back to the area.... YAY.... but the MOST EXCITING NEWS is that he’s asked me to be the Best Man at hi wedding to Melanie.... With all the friends he has I am so honored I can’t tell you..... It made me cry. He had to go to Newburgh for work so we met at the Ground Round and had a delightful luncheon.
Ian, Shawn and I went to see the SUNY New Paltz production of Guys And Dolls.... Fantastic!!
Wednesday, 2 October 2002 :)
I have no real idea where the energy came from but I ran errands, went to Mom’s for one visit, went to Penny’s in Poughkeepsie, then Linen and Things and got some shower curtains, went back to New Paltz Picked up Ian and went back to Mom’s and re did her lower bathroom.... even sewed one of the fabric shower curtains to make matching window drapery..... went home and waxed the Pathfinder.... *phew*.... but I did it!
Please say a prayer for my Aunt Toni-Ann she just feels under the weather.... I got to see her at Mom’s for a little bit.
Tuesday, 1 October 2002 :)
Please say a prayer for ‘Richie’.... he’s in Ireland and he needs prayers badly. Please include Rudy P. ‘cause he needs some too.
I did something I never did before, (don’t get to say that often) I made a pot roast.... My Mom talked me through it and it came out terrific... Tada.
Later Ian and I, along with our friend Sonya went to see, Sweet Home Alabama..... it was the best! We really had a good time.